Thursday was a seesaw of a day. It swung from one end of the spectrum to the other. No matter which end you were on, you couldn’t help but feel the breath of something so much bigger.
Jorn, the man in charge of Ranger Safari’s fleet said one set of parting words to me as I drove off in Miss Tembo. He said,” I’ll be hearing from you tomorrow. There is always something wrong with the car on your first day out.” He did not mean to say I was a pain or a complainer but still I wagged my finger at him in jest. He replied that it was fine because this was the only way we got to talk to each other.
The following morning, I was ready to go, we were loading into the car, bags were packed, cooler filled with ice for water samples, paper work ready for school assessments, my big binder in place to lift me off the seat so that my feet could reach the petals, and Boom!
Starter turns over, turns over again, then – makes the saddest sound and then silence.
Nothing.
“You are kidding me!” I yelled. “Today, of all days!” At this point it is three days before I have to leave and the western connection to time and this idea that it is running out, was making its way into my consciousness.
I called Jorn and blamed him. I told him that he cursed me and he laughed his deep, big, hearty red headed laugh.
He said he would have a mechanic to me in about an hour. I needed to be in Mbuguni in an hour and we had other schools we needed to assess on the way.
I sat down in the dirt in the parking lot, on the brink of allowing this incident to choke the enthusiasm out of me.
A voice in my head cried, “No! Get up!”
I listened and went back into the front desk to ask for the keys to Remtula. Remtula is the name of the house Abbas was prepared to rent to us. I figured I could use the time to see if it was a match for our office needs. I also assumed I could walk there.
“It is far.” Glory said, a beautiful woman who works at the hotel.
“Far?” I replied – I thought it was just around the corner from the farm house.
“Not so much.” She said.
I paused and vacillated back to the solar panel idea at Anna and Joseph’s house. Right at that moment, Anna called and was returning from the market with the food for the men at Manyatta. The taxi driver was unloading the food. I figured the meter was running – not really, there are no meters in this part of the world – so why not use the time to go and check out Remtula.
Remtula was nothing that I had expected it to be. I actually felt a lot of peace there. It is surrounded by nothing but rolling hills and beautiful views of both Mount Meru and Kilimanjaro. Kili came out to say hello while we were there and that in itself is a rare treat.
The house needs a ton of cleaning – I mean a ton – but I had my potential glasses on and the potential was great.
Anna was quiet though and I took note. On the way back from Remtula, I asked her what she felt. She admitted – which she does rarely – that she was a little afraid to walk to the house alone. The forest was thick and there was nothing else around. That kind of sealed the deal for me. The last thing I want to do is commit to something to support her work becoming more efficient and then somehow have it harm her along the way. So solar panels it is for now. Joseph and Anna already have two panels on their roof so adding more will be easy. Joseph admitted, with his deep chuckle, that he did the electrical – which means a professional will need to come in and do it properly for the office.
Truthfully all of this adds up to less money than it would cost to rent Remtula anyway. So solar and home office is the way it will be.
When the mechanics arrived we were lucky. It was just the wiring to the battery - nothing major. Within 5 minutes of their arrival, we were back on the road. But time had passed – more than an hour or so and we were late. So Anna called the head teachers and asked them to wait for us. Mbuguni would need to be our first stop. It also happens to be the farthest away.
When we arrived at Mbuguni, it was such a treat. The kids were healthy and hydrated. The tanks were almost full and you could see the substantial improvement in less than a year. When Jeremiah was interviewed, his results paralleled the other schools: Amazing improvement in health, attendance and scholastic performance. Not that I expected less from him – he is a 6’7” angel. The children are his life and helping them is his passion. He had arranged for me to meet a man named Deos. I took note of the meaning of his name. He has an NGO called the Maisha Project. Maisha means life in Swahili. He and his partner saw my name in the visitor’s book and wanted to meet me. He is Tanzanian with a pseudo Brooklyn accent. We spoke for a bit and I got to know his history and his plans for the future. He is working on a compostable latrine pit system. He has also worked for an organization called SIC. We worked with them in Kikwe and Mstombogo. Their work revolves around HIV. They test at home – which is awesome – and they help those who are infected get medication and ARVs. When we went to leave Mbuguni, I offered Deos a ride back to town.
“As long as you don’t mind a bunch of stops along the way?” I said
“Not at all, where is your driver?” he asked.
“I don’t have one.” I replied.
“WOW!” was his response.
As we travelled through the different villages and assessed schools and homes, Deos got quieter and quieter.
“Are you okay?” I asked as we got to the last school.
“In all my years of reviewing NGO’s and trying to determine what works and doesn’t, I have yet to see anyone who has done what you have done and in the way you have done it. If it were my right to be proud of you, I would.”
I have never had anyone say that to me – not in five years of doing this. At that moment, standing there in Kikwe, the sky turned into one of those heavenly lit moments. I thought of all the support we have been given and all the faith that people have bestowed in us. I took his comment to be one from his name sake and thanked him humbly.
Once we returned to the hotel, the pendulum swung deeply to the other side. Anna and I set up shop in the lounge. Moses was busy drinking pineapple juice and eating banana chips. Choosing lottery winners was the task at hand. Nothing about this task is light. You have to read and reread through all the parental interviews to determine who is the most in need. We usually choose 4 lottery winners to receive residential rainwater harvesting systems. There are hundreds of interviews and we can only give four families this life changing gift. It is excruciating and deeply painful to sit in this position – to look over some families and choose others. I recently wrote about the journey in this selection process:
“Who are we to decide who we help next and who will have to wait – essentially who will be one step closer to life and who will be one step closer to death. I am often stripped of hope and find myself swimming in a sea of helplessness during this process. Tears flow like tidal waves and a weight comes down upon you that feels sinking. But an amazing thing comes in the moments that follow and they are nothing of what you think they will be. It is a consciousness of choice. It is a firm fight that swells up and calls the helplessness into the ring and into the corner. It says,’I dare you to stop me from trying. We may not get to them all, but damn it, we will die trying.’ It is the zero place and it is where my faith germinates from a seed and begins to take root.”
And that is what happened here as well. We started with a pile of 58 families that we had put into the ‘maybe’ pile. It took us hours to whittle it down to 5. We deliberated for over an hour and in the end, I did what I always do. I said, “No, I am not going to leave one family out. We’ll find the money. I know we will.”
And so we decided that 5 families would be lottery winners instead of four. At that very moment, a classic old eighties song came over the radio. “I catch the rain down in Africa” rang out over our head. We knew we had made the right choice.
On Friday, it was confirmed that we had made the right decision. We photographed the children whose families were lottery winners. Their eyes were sunken and their skin was graying. They were so thin and something in their eyes, regardless of the fact that they were so young, had already died. Anna and I took each other’s hand. She said: “Thank Mr. God that you are stubborn and that we chose all of these families.” I laughed and agreed.
We left Manyatta after arranging to meet the parents the next day. Off we were to do what you ask? I am giggling as I write this… to put our down payment on Miss Tembo. Wahooooooooooooooooo – Save the Rain now owns a car! A little tank actually that will not only move the team but move all the materials for the Women’s Water Initiative.
In the end after the bank and a last visit to Aim Steel, we headed home. We were both very aware that we were in that moment breaking one of Save the Rain cardinal laws. No driving at night. But Miss Tembo proved to be a mighty chariot and got us home – regardless of the handful of little scares – safe and sound.
The following morning my “left to do before you leave” list was long. I was worried; everything required a lot of detail. Somehow time bent itself in my favor. One by one, things got scratched off the list. It was another 20 hour day but worth every one of the moments.
When we arrived at Manyatta to meet the parents, there were six present instead of five. When all the dust settled and the story became clear, it was determined that a little boy named Oldevent who lived with his grandmother until last week, went home and told his mother that she had won the lottery. But Oldevent’s cousin – Angel, whose mother died and is now being raised by that same grandmother, went home and told her grandmother that she had won the lottery. Oldevent’s mother had fled from her husband and left her son with his grandmother. She had just returned and had reclaimed her son.
There it was, right in my face. The pressure hit me like a punching bag. I looked deeply into the eyes of both women. The grandmother had been selected as the lottery winner but how could I allow this error – an error done in such innocence – determine whether this women and her child had this life changing leg up. Joseph took me outside. While we were discussing it, the mother felt it only right to leave. Joseph offered to work for free to provide this family with help. There we were – standing in front of each other, mirroring these enormous hearts back at one another. Two hearts that formed such a deep partnership, such a capacity to move through this painful and enlightening work together. He offered and I refused. But I love him more deeply for it. Again for the second time in 48 hours, I muttered, “We’ll find the money. I know we will.”
Within a split second of the words falling from the lips, I deeply expected “I catch the rain down in Africa” to thunder from the heavens. Instead, thunder came and opened the sky. Down came the rain, and we did actually catch it.
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